The Great Fall
MyBrain15 result is out, and this appears on my screen which is totally out of my expectation and I am so not ready to accept this kind of outcome.
'tak lengkap' my ass.
The only thing I saw 'incomplete' in the backup copy of my application form is that I uploaded the unverified copies of my documents since they are all the freaking ORIGINAL copies.
I fall hard on this one. Really hard.
Along this 27 years of my f*cked-up life, I filled in hundreds and thousands of forms. Academic vise, so far there's no record of incomplete forms submitted by me!!
Although it's not really a big sum of money, at least it can help me waiving off the freaking fees. I must have put a hell lot of hope onto this one after the failure of NSF, I fall from the very top to the very bottom. Hurt so badly, I wanted to kill the annoying cricket in the lab and the innocent boy of my clustermate's whose being nothing but super noisy and annoying.
A friend kept on reminding me about my 'skin color' (if you know what I mean), since the NSF, and to expect this kind of result, forget about it and move on. If so, I really need to ask for a verification from my NSF interviewer, because the way he said it as if I am 'one of them' (if you know what I mean)!!
I don't know la, fortune teller said it is a good path (yea I know, superstitious). Everyone says every thing happen for a reason, what is mine? I need two reasons already up til now.
For what I've been through, the most irritated thing is people telling me "You have a good CGPA. No worries lah~ They prefer top scorer" when I go/decide for anything academically. MY ASS!!
If this is the hint of telling me I am not qualified to go for higher degree, just say so, I will quit right away.
OMG I hate this feeling. The feeling of being at the lowest of the lowest mood. Need to do something about it. Haih. 收拾心情很麻烦一下的咯... -__-
'tak lengkap' my ass.
The only thing I saw 'incomplete' in the backup copy of my application form is that I uploaded the unverified copies of my documents since they are all the freaking ORIGINAL copies.
I fall hard on this one. Really hard.
Along this 27 years of my f*cked-up life, I filled in hundreds and thousands of forms. Academic vise, so far there's no record of incomplete forms submitted by me!!
Although it's not really a big sum of money, at least it can help me waiving off the freaking fees. I must have put a hell lot of hope onto this one after the failure of NSF, I fall from the very top to the very bottom. Hurt so badly, I wanted to kill the annoying cricket in the lab and the innocent boy of my clustermate's whose being nothing but super noisy and annoying.
A friend kept on reminding me about my 'skin color' (if you know what I mean), since the NSF, and to expect this kind of result, forget about it and move on. If so, I really need to ask for a verification from my NSF interviewer, because the way he said it as if I am 'one of them' (if you know what I mean)!!
I don't know la, fortune teller said it is a good path (yea I know, superstitious). Everyone says every thing happen for a reason, what is mine? I need two reasons already up til now.
For what I've been through, the most irritated thing is people telling me "You have a good CGPA. No worries lah~ They prefer top scorer" when I go/decide for anything academically. MY ASS!!
If this is the hint of telling me I am not qualified to go for higher degree, just say so, I will quit right away.
OMG I hate this feeling. The feeling of being at the lowest of the lowest mood. Need to do something about it. Haih. 收拾心情很麻烦一下的咯... -__-
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