Since my dear BaNaNa-girl JuJu don't understand mandarin, so this post is specially dedicated to her, english version .. huhu~
yay~ i had a blissful + peace + sour BirdDay.. i get aLot of B'Day blessing from LYN's dearest buddies.. thanks to the BD thread which opened by TongYam, i get few more wishes from some *perfect-stranger* forumers.. plus for those dearest friends, Yin jie(sa yee bo a siong nih??), Chen, Mummy who dedicated the wishes via sms, calls and friendster's messages, thanks thanks thanks~
Last year's birthday, i got 2 small cakes from a friend & another bigger cake from Chin, Qing & saimatkong.. This year>>>
I got 3!! hehe~ & thanks so much for the Pizza Hut treat from LuMun aka LuMin aka LongKhong (gosh, now onli i know about her nicks :p ), KarLin, PeiSia & JuJu.. =)
too bad la, had a upset stomach, so I couldn’t stuffed a lot of food inside me.. >.<
Cant really believe that I express my ‘dis-puashati-on’ feelings to him today.. ON THIS DAY! >.< And as at first I thought he forgot everything edi, he replied me that he come back from overseas for ‘today’, but need to postpone to next week as only then he has free time, and as so ‘accidently’ I balik kampung for 2 weeks long study week+raya holiday.. So, what else can I say? 随缘？ Frankly, I’m quite sick of taking this as reason.. what 缘 will we have if we don’t really go and fight for our 缘? A buddy gave me 3 questions to figure and digest, and almost everything he said is right, but last time I just choose to ignore it.. Now when I face them back, it’s really hurt, and it does help to make me realize that I forgot to ‘selfish’ again.. I forgot to love myself more again.. I forgot to keep 30-40% out of 100% of love to myself.. and I started to dump all the hopes on him.. again..
Anyway, I’ll be ok de.. don worry..