原来，心痛到极端时，是不会流泪的...

昨晚，我领悟了这个道理...

其实，只是一件小事...真的很小很小。

可是，这件小事让我的无名火一时就上来了，让我无言以对地心痛，让我很不想看到她们的脸...

当下的心情，很痛。让我觉得自己一直以来又变成只是被利用的傻瓜，让我觉得我以为自己最要好的朋友，也不过如此而已。

我只想跑出去。

当我在玻璃市-北大宽阔道路狂奔飙车时，我很想哭。也真的有哭，但是哭得很没瘾。

在回程时，一滴眼泪也没流出来。反而觉得自己很好笑。

只是，我的心情，我的观念，我的想法，我的态度，已经不再一样了。

我以为我们说好的。真的。

你们让我以为我只是一厢情愿地以为跟你们是一伙的。真的。

你们也让我领悟了这个道理。

我的心很痛，真的很痛。

可是，原来，心痛到一个极端的阶段，是不会哭的。

Comments

Jasmine * said…
是不是你的那班朋友?别伤心掉泪，值得吗？开心旧好。人是这么毒的。加油，妹！
May 14, 2010 at 5:09:00 PM GMT+8
Huey Nee said…
没事了...第二天就没事了...
只是那个气一时上来，很顶不顺咯~

干妈怎样了呢？
May 15, 2010 at 3:17:00 PM GMT+8
Jasmine * said…
在哥哥的家，修养着。听起来很痛很痛，没办法lor。谢谢关心！！！
May 16, 2010 at 6:18:00 PM GMT+8
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